Ok so here it goes. I have been thinking of writting about the aftershock the lockdown has brought to my life. I have been pondering all day long on where to start. I am emotionally exhausted sitting here with no makeup on in tights, a t-shirt and with bloodshot eyes from all the crying. Dear lockdown what have you done… turned my world upside down. I am the kind of women that dresses up everyday in a casual world where many women don’t care to take notice of what they look like. I do my makeup everyday and take special notice of each line and stroke I make on my face seeing it as a canvas that truly reflects my soul. I am a strong believer that one of the most important thing in life is a first impression. Lockdown has really hit me so hard that I have been at a stand still the past 2 days. The bom that exploded that caused the walls to crumble, was me being demoted after working 3 years giving more of myself than I thought humanly possible to get to where I am now or was (let me correct myself…) I feel so unmotivated, lost, angry like I have been taken from Hero to Zero. I feel like I am making the people in my life important and supporting there dreams but no one is looking out for me and worried if I’m ok or how I am affected by all of this. Yes it’s work, but it’s personal for me as I make my work my own. I look after the company with real integrity…not that there are alot of people that know’s what this word even means. So here I am at the cross roads of life dealing with cleaning the house, working full time, being a teacher, wife, having a spiderbite that is causing me physical pain, all the work drama, worried about childcare asking myself where do I even start. Hopefully I will have a fresh view on this tomorrow?